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  • Chrysoula 9:38 am on February 14, 2007 | 2 Permalink | Reply
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    but I think I’m sick. I’ve been coughing a bit more, and having a subsequent intake-reversal. I thought that, well, I was just relapsing into the terrible morning sickness, but Raymond is staying home today because he’s ill.

    This is actually a great relief. Sickness goes away. Morning sickness, on the other hand, could be with me for seven more months, if I were unlucky. Or, you know, another four weeks. And I’d been feeling better on Monday morning, too.

    Not that this does much for the writing. But I persevere! What kind of establishments, retail and otherwise, does one find in really bad slums?

     
  • Chrysoula 8:43 pm on February 5, 2007 | 5 Permalink | Reply
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    Shiny shiny. Kevin’s fault. Work of a weekend.

    We got a new houseplant yesterday, a peace lily. I also got an orange tree and a Meyer lemon tree! Well, I say tree but they’re both tiny bushes at the moment. Well, I say tiny but they take up all of Kevin’s dressertop. I dunno if they’ll actually bear fruit, but the window they’re in is a second-story south-facing window that gets the most light in the house. So we’ll see. Still, the orange tree was in bloom already, and oh my goodness orange blossom is intoxicating.

    We also got some humidifiers, a big one for upstairs and a small one for downstairs. They’re just the evaporative kind but they definitely make the house a more pleasant place. Between the trees and the bedroom humidifier, Kevin’s actually managed to convince me to close my bedroom window, which hasn’t happened in many years. I’m really sensitive to the smell of stale air!

    I wish I had more to report than that, especially on the writing front. Aren’t you all tired of that mantra? I sure am. Okay, here’s the thing.1 Clap your hands if you DO believe I can have a finished new Carousel Chain story fresh for reading here by Friday morning. Er, and post here as well, or else the little fairy might not hear you.

    “Just think, with a tiny portion of your daily Internet interest-allotment, this starving artist can earn her keep for the week! No charity has ever asked for less, and no gift will ever do more!” 2

    1I clearly don’t care about disappointing myself*, but maybe I’ll shy away from disappointing other people. Possibly. If there are enough of them that I can’t dismiss it as a fluke.

    2For less.

    *And this is not the time to fix my self-esteem. That’s better done when I’m producing, anyhow.

     
  • Chrysoula 7:16 pm on January 9, 2007 | 1 Permalink | Reply
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    Although I walk just fine on it.

    Writing is so hard right now. I’ve reached that terrible phase where I wonder if anything I write will be worth selling, and am convinced that because so much of it is slow plodding word after slow plodding word (rather than lightning visions) that it will be dull dull dull.

     
  • Chrysoula 10:26 pm on January 2, 2007 | 2 Permalink | Reply
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    I fell down today and twisted my ankle! Ow! My dogs were not sympathetic and now I am sitting, foot up. No swelling but it hurt a stunning amount for a while. Less stunning now. Still very hard to walk.
    This is the year of writing! I don’t think I can do a meaningful wordcount though, because I’m doing it in such stages…. writing a summary, dictating, cleaning up dictation, eventual rewriting. But goal-wise, I’d like to finish three books and may aim to finish four. Well, by ‘finish’, I mean ‘in rough draft form’. I’d like to do detailed world creation for two settings. And I’d like to submit the TFN trilogy by September or so.

    Um. I have a lot of self-doubts. My reaction to hurting my ankle was to lounge around on a couch playing a video game, instead of soldiering on. I haven’t met any deadline I’ve set yet. I have a role model self inside but I’ve fallen down on pressuring myself to measure up to her. Hoping too much for external pressure, I suppose. And falling prey to too many distractions. I WANT to stay aware of the world, want to pursue external adventures, but I think especially without medication, I need to utterly lose myself. I will probably be able to post about myself when I feel like it and I think I should since I forget my past otherwise, but… wow, tuning out is hard.

    I HAVE been very sleepy lately, and in my sleep, dreaming again. Yay!

     
  • Chrysoula 3:19 pm on December 24, 2006 | 4 Permalink | Reply
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    Cathy, Kevin’s mom, is here for the holiday. She’s leaving before New Year’s, though. We decorated our artificial tree last night– Kevin finally gave in on the real tree issue because Raymond is allergic to tree sap. It looks very nice. I made cookie dough which I’ll probably bake half of today and half later in the year; I think Raymond likes those cookies.

    I have been playing Disgaea and Kevin has been playing his early Christmas present a Nintendo DS. He also informed me that he was giving me a Wii for Christmas, just as soon as they were in stock somewhere.

    Kevin’s insurance has changed and apparently they’ll cover Stratterra now. So I need to decide if I want to go back on it again. Long term, I would like to. But if I get pregnant, I’ll have to stop again, and, well, theoretically it could happen at any time. And yes, pregnancy is something I kind of have issues about, but Kevin and I want the end result so I guess I’ve got to suck it up and cope. Well, I hope I have to suck it up and cope. I’ve read enough infertility stories to not want to go there. Anyhow.

    I have lots of excellent presents for Kevin and I’m reasonably happy with my presents for other people. Perhaps more on that later!

    Christmas always raises my anxiety level significantly, so hugs and kisses, everybody. Be well and be happy and, if you feel so inclined, reassure me that you care.

     
  • Chrysoula 2:18 am on December 14, 2006 | 1 Permalink | Reply
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    I keep burning my arm on the oven.

    I have a new dishwasher, which Kevin installed because Sears didn’t. Yay Kevin.

    Work on TFN 2 goes Very Slowly.

    We don’t have a Christmas tree yet. Christmas shopping goes apace. My family should give me a shout-out about what they want though, or they’ll get truly random things. I think I have ideas for most of my friends. Even Raymond.

    I sleep, I clean, I work on creative projects. Sometimes I cook. I play with the pets. I play video games. Currently enjoying Ninety-nine Nights. I still spend too much time goofing off. It’s hard. I miss the ADD medication, it turns out. I don’t know if it would actually be helping but I do seem to lose a lot of time to random semi-productive tasks that nonetheless don’t need to be done NOW… but I do them anyhow.

    I’ve been rereading various David Eddings novels. 4/5 of the Belgariad, and I just finished the Elenium. Encouragement for TFN 2, I suppose. Today I was thinking about horses in Ceria; their gaits and the injuries sustained by riders after unexpectedly long rides. In the Elenium, they apparently canter their horses all day. These are men in full armor, too. Hah hah hah. And the warhorse is faster than the palfrey. Time to break out Tough Guide to Fantasyland!
    We’re recording Lost Room from the Scifi Channel but we haven’t watched it. I’m also enjoying reruns of Scrubs and am relatively current on My Name Is Earl.

    Did I mention Dragon Naturally Speaking? I got that piece of software with my spare change jar, and finally the voice recorder Kevin gave me two years ago is getting adequate use; I can dictate into it and then Dragon Naturally Speaking (version 9) will transcribe it. It’s not perfect, of course, but I’m trying to teach myself how to write via dictation; it’ll be useful as my wrists get worse.

     
  • Chrysoula 12:46 am on November 28, 2006 | 2 Permalink | Reply
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    For those that hadn’t noticed I have been and am going to be out of the loop for a while, at least on the post/read blogging circuit. I can still be reached by my GMail email address; if you don’t have it and want it, post here and I’ll send it to you. Nothing particular is going on, but I’ve been slacking too much reading stuff on the internet and so I need to get priorities straightened out. I had a great Thanksgiving and OMG there’s five inches of snow outside WTF?

    xxoo

     
  • Chrysoula 7:43 pm on November 6, 2006 | 2 Permalink | Reply
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    Apparently my blog was a lot more interesting when I was at work. I’m sorry!

    In between novel work I’ve been playing Star Wars Legos, Neverwinter Nights 2, and a bit of World of Warcraft. I’m also rereading the Belgariad. I chase the dogs around a lot. I gained a lot of weight during the move and I’m trying to bring my step-count up but it’s been raining. Shopping is good on those days but I’ve also been sleeping during the day a lot and that cuts into shopping time.

    I don’t have nightmares about moving or being back at work nearly as much as I did last month. I’m starting to have other dreams again– but I haven’t yet recaptured the trick of remembering them, a trick stolen by the Zoloft (as far as I can tell).

    The house is still basically a disaster area. It’s better in some ways than before we moved (we rarely run out of forks) but there’s still an enormous amount of unpacking to get done and it’s been hard to motivate anybody to work on that on weekdays. I keep wanting to post pictures of our house but I want it to be clean first, too. And unpacked. It’s definitely going to have some nice rooms once everything is in place and it shouldn’t be too hard to keep decent once everything is in place.

     
  • Chrysoula 12:47 pm on October 26, 2006 | 1 Permalink | Reply
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    So, I’ve hit a snag on the outlining that will require a slowdown– some worldbulding, some re-consideration. My self-imposed schedule, as you might recall, is very tight. Even tighter, since I was aiming for finishing the outline on the 30th so I could have a day to breathe before launching into the text.

    I get all panicky when I think of my schedule as a hard deadline, as ‘must have X by end of November’.

    But when I think of it like I was taught to think of deadlines at work, as ‘I think I can have X by the end of November, but of course events may revise that’, I feel calm, relaxed, as if it’s achievable.

    I have to remember my theories about not rushing. But I also have to balance those against various unavoidable time limits. Juggle juggle.

     
  • Chrysoula 3:43 pm on October 24, 2006 | 0 Permalink | Reply
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    I seem to be more interested in reading about writing than writing today. Lots of breaks, pulling those little sentences out, staring in dismay at how hard it is to get so few words, wondering how the heck I’m going to make this work in the rough draft phase, wondering if anybody is going to find this dreck interesting, worrying about tension and how I haven’t as precisely constructed each scene this time. There’s more of ‘I need to show X happening’, less of making sure each scene follows the rules I used in the last book (wherein things never quite go the way the scene protagonist plans). Whine, whine.
    Jenna had a lot to say about how ‘unique’ my narration style was. She said it was like opening a door and walking into a room full of people, mid-scene. I’m still thinking about that.

     
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