I’m ready for some positive aspect of pregnancy now.
March 23rd, 2007
Given that I’m well past my first trimester, I think that I don’t have much hope of the ‘vomiting all over myself’ part ending anytime soon. I’m really ready for a constant indicator that there’s a new human life growing inside of me and that I don’t just have a disease. It’s hard to have any affection for a disease.
I don’t even remember what feeling nauseous feels like, right now. Maybe it’s hormones, like the ones that let you forget the pain of labor. Maybe I don’t even get nausea anymore– just the sensation of my gorge suddenly rising, and wondering if I can hold it back long enough to position myself in front of something with a basin and a drain.
You know what’s tragically funny? I was just reading about high fructose corn syrup and all the ways it’s bad for you. And yet I’m pretty sure the only stuff I can keep down reliably is just full of it. Sweet stuff. I love the sweet stuff and so does my stomach.
Sometimes sudden sweet flavor rushes can avert it, or make a purging bout shorter and less painful. Lollipops help. There’s a sugared bubble gum with liquid centers that’s almost perfect. I hate chewing sugared gum but I hate studying the meal I ate a second time even more.
I’m also reaching a point where it’s getting a touch uncomfortable to sleep on my stomach, but it’s nearly impossible to sleep on my side. I try to prop myself up everywhere but the point where the pressure bothers me. But my clothes still fit (for which I’m actually grateful) and there’s nothing really to feel with my fingers.
And I’m getting really tired of this fucking rain. We’re now an inch and a half over the March average. We get a flood warning every week or so. I’m just so tired of it. I keep watching the 10 day forecasts and there are half-day respites sometimes, when the ground dries out a bit and the sun tries to come out but I feel like it’s all a gambit by the weather to avoid making any more long-streak-of-rain records. February was also 2 inches over the average. Stop trying to drown me!
I continue to be really glad I’m not working at Microsoft, even though that makes money tight. I started to see a little forward motion on positive projects this week but I don’t want to jinx it so you don’t get to know.
EtA: One of the reasons I want the rain to end is that our backyard is flooding and rotting in places. This means whenever the dogs come in, they smell really really really bad. We have to clean their feet off most of the time, and we do, but the smell of disgusting mud lingers. And encourages heaves! I can’t really manage taking them for walks simultaneously anymore, even if it weren’t wet wet wet wet all the damn fucking time. I feel that wrangling two dogs who average out to a bit over 100 lbs and are prone to sudden spurts of racing ahead would definitely violate the ‘heavy lifting’ ban, in spirit if not in actuality. So they HAVE to go into the backyard. I bought them booties for such occasions as this but they cause Hannah to have a nervous breakdown while Dante tries to take everybody’s shoes off.
Categories: Science Experiment | Tags: food, pregnancy, weather
*hugs*
In regards to sleep positioning, have you tried getting a special pregnancy pillow or two? I have a wedge-shaped one that I found really helpful for either supporting my belly while lying on my side or for putting between my knees while lying on my side so my spine was aligned more comfortably. They also make full-body pillows that might be helpful. I picked mine up for $5 at a discount store. Online, you might try places like overstock.com.
Yes, I picked one up a month or so ago, for a lot more than $5, unfortunately. It’s one of these: Snoogle. I like it a lot although I wish I had a cover for it. But it can only do so much. My problem isn’t my spine, it’s that I fall over onto my belly. I don’t balance very well on my side. I sit with my legs bent for most of the day, so nighttime is when I stretch them out. That is, I don’t like to curl up in bed and so I can’t balance.
Previous to that I picked up a very bulky full-body pillow from Costco, but Kevin absconded with it (and seemed to get along better with it than I did so I let him).
I also toss and turn a LOT while falling asleep. This makes fully utilizing body pillows awkward. One reason I picked up the Snoogle is because it curves to almost be a both-sides body pillow. Not quite enough though. Our (queen-sized) bed really isn’t big enough for me to fling a body pillow around with me each time I switch sides. So I make do with other pillows and rolled up blankets and so forth, but I still feel like I’m crowding Kevin, which makes it harder to fall asleep.
I know you want to stretch out your legs but have you tried hooking your top leg over the pillow while laying on your side? This is how I keep myself balanced when sleeping on my side/stomach sometimes.
And hey, you’ve got a sewing machine you could try making a cover for the snoogle.
I thought of that! It’s all curvy though and would probably require measurements…. and some knowledge of how to turn measurements into a 3d object. But it’s not off the agenda.
Eh, just measure the circumference and sew a giant tube. You don’t need to worry too much about the ends. There may be a little bunching at the curve but you could probably do something about that once you get the general tube shape down.
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