There are those of you who may wonder why my infrequent posts are never about anything but the wedding. It’s not all I think about. Nor is it the only source of stress, though I suppose it leaks into other potential sources and makes me more vulnerable to them, weakening my overall emotional immune system.
I am most likely to post when I’m doing well, or when I have something cool to talk about. Even when I’m not doing well, I feel obligated to make regular wedding-related updates, since I am so phone-adverse. My friends and family need to keep appraised of what’s going on somehow.
So, things are getting done. There’s more than one stressful and important task yet undone. Kevin’s work is eating him alive, giving him no time to think about wedding stuff during the day, making him work long hours and have precious little energy for wedding stuff at night– and most of /that/ energy is eaten up by dealing with random meltdowns from me. My negative self-image has been climbing out of its pit more often lately (a side effect of the stress, maybe, or of all the tasks I need to get done, or all the forgetting I do) and that leads to fights and more meltdowns as I get frustrated with myself. It’s very hard to think rationally sometimes.
But I’m ok. It’s just wedding stress. Nobody needs to worry. Stuff is getting done.