May 18th, 2005
We’ve been up until 3 am the past two nights, working on various tasks. The favors finally arrived yesterday. Woot. But we’re tired.
I haven’t been feeling great, healthwise, and to make it worse we’ve been forgetting our vitamins and echinaea. I hope I can hold on.
I don’t know if there will be any more posts here until I get back. Thanks for all the well-wishes, folks. If I don’t post before I return, I’ll at least be keeping some kind of paper journal as I go, and I’ll do some kind of update based on that when I get back.
Here we go. Time for adventure.
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May 15th, 2005
I have quite a shopping list for souvenirs from Europe, especially if I count both nice gifts and trinkets. This is very exciting! I love justifying spending money by spending it on other people. We’ve decided to give our wedding party and parental gifts as souvenirs, and there are several other people who have been exceptionally helpful (or patient) that I’d like to shower with material manifestations of my affection.
However… I’m trying to do some pre-trip brainstorming on appropriate things to keep an eye out for. While both Rome and Paris make me think ‘clothes’, I follow a strict policy of not buying gifts that require an international flight to return if they don’t fit. Other than that, Paris makes me think ‘art’ and Rome makes me think ‘leather’. I suppose there’s ‘jewelry’ in both places. I hear Rome has some groups aggressively encouraging ‘cats’ as souvenirs. Oh hey, ’sunglasses’ are a Rome thing. Hm, hm. ‘Wine’. ‘Catholic estoterica’. ‘Ratty old books’ (from Paris bookstalls). I suppose there’s ‘gaudy trinkets like miniature Eiffel towers’. ‘Scarves/ties’ might be an exception to the ‘no clothes’ rule– scarves more than ties, really. Possible ‘music’.
If you have suggestions, please post them!
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May 15th, 2005
Tomorrow, we need to get more paper for the programs. And go to half-price books. And pick up small quality sketchbooks for Kevin and I. And pick up the dress.
Yet more laundry was done today. Also, I bought some more new bras and a pair of short-underwear for wearing under skirts. And we got some paper for programs, and placecards. And socks for Kevin. We got haircuts. I got highlights in my hair, just at the front. They’re a lot more dramatic than I was hoping for, but probably won’t be too noticeable at the wedding, due to the tiara and stuff.
If I can find the Real Woman dollars I got from Lane Bryant I want to go to the Las Vegas one and buy a swimsuit with them on Friday.
Stuff still to be done, sometime… program printing and assembly, lettering placecards, assigning places (the Aquaknox was supposed to email me a floorplan but that didn’t happen so I will call on Monday morning and be very insistent). Kevin is writing vows tomorrow, he assures me. We’ve come down to a couple of songs for the recessional and we picked up the Bond CD they’re both on at Borders today. (We discovered that Borders is closing down next month, too, which was very sad because it’s our favorite bookstore.) I need to write CDs of the wedding music and the reception music. This may take some time. We need to pack. I need to make sure I have chargers for all the electronics. I need to plug in my camera and clear the memory card. I need to email out our cellphone #s to various guests. I need to print out maps and directions. We need to vaccuum. We need to go grocery shopping for Ray’s heavier supplies while we’re gone. I need to arrange an airport shuttle on Thursday.
Request of wedding party: Am I forgetting something? Please post in a comment.
Request of beloved immediate family, AKA ‘Dad’: Please send me your travel dates and hotel information as well as confirm your cellphone #s. Also, uh, I’m barely together enough to arrange a ‘first dance’ for Kevin and I. I may be picking a song out of a hat for a ‘father-daughter’ dance. At one point I was trying to remember if you liked Mister Mr. (Kyrie Elasia). Also, I don’t know your current email address. 
Please send email to my email address, dreamfarmer at gmail dot com.
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May 9th, 2005
I haven’t slept very much the past two nights. I’ve been twitching myself awake every time I drift off. Nerves, I suppose. Not anything conscious. I’m barely worrying now, consciously, despite all the stuff to be done at work, despite the stuff yet to do for the wedding and honeymoon. But every night, twitch, twitch, twitch.
So tonight, I’m determined to get to sleep. I decided to take a hot bath, and drink some Tension Tamer tea (mint-lemon-chamomile). Kevin and I had watched a show we’d recorded off Fine Living discussing four interior decorating styles instead of folding laundry, after he built a fire to chase away rainstorm blues. So whne the time came for my bath, I thought ‘bath bomb. candles’. I wandered out and asked Kevin his opinion on the best kind of candles.
Suddenly there was a whirlwind of activity. Kevin chased me out of the bathroom while he set up a dozen or so candles of different heights and types around the tub, lit them and ran me a bath. The water was shimmering with steam, opaque with heat and bath salts, with beautiful ripples stirring the reflections of the candlelight. It was so lovely. Then while I soaked in the tub with a sakura bath bomb, he took my robe and slippers and towels and ran them through the dryer. When I finally emerged, my tea was hot and sweetened and steeped and waiting for me.
Now, he told Angie on the phone earlier that when I’m insomniac, he gets beaten black and blue by my tossing and turning, so it’s possible this was just pre-emptive self-defense on his part. And it’s embarassing, such ridiculous extravagance on my behalf; from my perspective I don’t deserve it. No no, stop throwing things at me. Not the cabbages!
He is so sweet and nice and generous to me that it brings tears to my eyes. It’s hard to imagine how I could be with somebody who can amaze me AND love me like he does… and yet I am.
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May 8th, 2005
I haven’t slept much this weekend. I heard there was some confusion about the duration of my stay, along with interest in my schedule so here’s stuff excerpted from my notes. Some things are more certain than others. It is my goal to make my cellphone number available to everybody who doesn’t already have it, and encourage people to call me that weekend to make plans. I expect everything will be a jumbled mess and I’ll try to muddle through as best I can, with the aid of my trusty bridal party. My decision-making capacities tend to stall out when I’m under stress and trying to make a lot of people happy at once, but I’m sure it will end up working out. Just don’t be surprised if somebody other than me answers my phone.
May 20 (Official First Day In Vegas):
Pick up marriage license
Dinner/desserts with arrived wedding party, celebrate Michelle’s birthday
May 21:
Lunch with guests at Le Village Buffet (possibly?)
Pick up tuxes.
Possibly Bachlorette/Bachelor Dinners (invite wedding guests of appropriate side by announcing? maid of honor/best man knows more)
May 22:
Ceremony Rehearsal 10 AM
Brunch (wedding party)
Dinner with guests at another buffet (possibly)
KA (Cirque Show)
May 23:
Get married @ 1.
Late lunch at Aquaknox @ 2.
Drinks with guests.
Sneak off at 7.
May 24:
Early breakfast @?? (with any guests awake)
catch limo to airport at 9, plane to Paris.
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May 6th, 2005
Driving to a checkup, I noticed my Maint. Req. light was on. I stressed for a while, wondering how long it had been on, recalling an out-of-place chiming from my car a few days ago, angsting over what could possibly be wrong, and bemoaning my fate.
Then I noticed the odometer was at 10,000 exactly.
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May 5th, 2005
Those of you following along at home will love this: I’m getting zits. More zits than I’ve had in years and years. Sometimes I think, maybe I’m just imagining feeling stressed, because it’s not utterly incapacitating all the time. But /zits/.
I got my first piece of Artifact Armor in Final Fantasy tonight: my gloves. Yay us!
Angie gave me a call to let me know she’d be saving some of her blue hair for my wedding day, though she’s dying it purple tomorrow. I think this is pretty darn cool.
Did I do anything wedding related today? I don’t think so… I think I spent all day working on some SQL code at work. I wrote some Learning Italian CDs last night while at anime, but they suck so I’m going to make some new ones.
Single-use cameras have arrived. A giant stockpot wedding present has arrived (from Kevin’s relatives). The favors should be arriving soon.
Oh! I have an eye appointment tomorrow at 4:30. I hope I don’t forget.
I keep reading Kevin fragments from the Rick Steves travel guides I picked up. Rick Steves is an entertaining fellow with some truly useful advice, but about half of what he encourages is aimed at the extremely thrifty– he encourages wearing ragged underwear and throwing them away after you’re done, as an example, to keep your luggage light. Since these pieces of advice are totally unsuited to our honeymoon plans, they end up being very amusing.
He also described the Eiffel Tower at night as Paris having sex with the night, which made me say ‘um’.
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May 3rd, 2005
There are those of you who may wonder why my infrequent posts are never about anything but the wedding. It’s not all I think about. Nor is it the only source of stress, though I suppose it leaks into other potential sources and makes me more vulnerable to them, weakening my overall emotional immune system.
I am most likely to post when I’m doing well, or when I have something cool to talk about. Even when I’m not doing well, I feel obligated to make regular wedding-related updates, since I am so phone-adverse. My friends and family need to keep appraised of what’s going on somehow.
So, things are getting done. There’s more than one stressful and important task yet undone. Kevin’s work is eating him alive, giving him no time to think about wedding stuff during the day, making him work long hours and have precious little energy for wedding stuff at night– and most of /that/ energy is eaten up by dealing with random meltdowns from me. My negative self-image has been climbing out of its pit more often lately (a side effect of the stress, maybe, or of all the tasks I need to get done, or all the forgetting I do) and that leads to fights and more meltdowns as I get frustrated with myself. It’s very hard to think rationally sometimes.
But I’m ok. It’s just wedding stress. Nobody needs to worry. Stuff is getting done.
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May 3rd, 2005
There are those of you who may wonder why my infrequent posts are never about anything but the wedding. It’s not all I think about. Nor is it the only source of stress, though I suppose it leaks into other potential sources and makes me more vulnerable to them, weakening my overall emotional immune system.
I am most likely to post when I’m doing well, or when I have something cool to talk about. Even when I’m not doing well, I feel obligated to make regular wedding-related updates, since I am so phone-adverse. My friends and family need to keep appraised of what’s going on somehow.
So, things are getting done. There’s more than one stressful and important task yet undone. Kevin’s work is eating him alive, giving him no time to think about wedding stuff during the day, making him work long hours and have precious little energy for wedding stuff at night– and most of /that/ energy is eaten up by dealing with random meltdowns from me. My negative self-image has been climbing out of its pit more often lately (a side effect of the stress, maybe, or of all the tasks I need to get done, or all the forgetting I do) and that leads to fights and more meltdowns as I get frustrated with myself. It’s very hard to think rationally sometimes.
But I’m ok. It’s just wedding stress. Nobody needs to worry. Stuff is getting done.
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